Huda Shaima Kaharudin

Dear kakak, 

In less than 24 hours u will be a wife. Mixed feeling kan? I know. Because i had been through that phase before. Hehe. Tapi kite tahu, this is the phase that you have been waiting for all this while.. :p I know u will be a good wife to cik abe. A good daughter to your family and to the in laws as well. I guess, Assalamualaikum Puan Kakak la kan after this? :) Hehe.

Dear kakak,

Since you told me that day that you will be entering this new phase, mixed feeling betul kite rasa. Teringat all those memories back in matrics day. All those while when u always there, trying so hard to be my protector when others trying to bully me. Ingat tak akak marah betul dkt budak yang tepuk belakang kite sampai kite kena asthma attack tu? Kite ingat lagi mimik muka akak sebab masa tu akak dah bertukar jadi singa. Hehe. It feels good, and sad at the same time. Weh, how come a stranger can be so good to me?! This weird lady right here. Banyak peel dan songeh. Tak caya ask kakak huda ni. Betul kan kakak? Haha. Semua benda kak huda ajak buat kite hardly say yes. Asyik taknak. Outing pun taknak ok. Boleh kira guna jari je berapa kali kite nak outing huhu. Tapi kak huda ingat kan kite sleepover at balqis's and nisah's? One of the reason was sebab masa tu terdesak episod histeria tak habis habis, so i need to get out from that place (matrik) for a while since semua org takda that weekend. Momen histeria berjemaah tu pun still fresh dalam ingatan kite ni. And u were there, pujuk kite supaya kite jadi kuat to make sure kite tak histeria. And pujuk kite supaya kite okay. Huhu kenapa baik sangat kakak? :')

Dear kakak,

Kite tau kite ni annoying. Hahahaha. Pls admit it. And there are time that u cant bear with my attitude. But after a while kite dua mesti akan okay balik. Kite dua tak pernah gaduh mulut pun.. Tapi, mesti akan ada silent treatment if i did anything bad. Kan? :P kihkih i know okay. My family know that u are one of my closest friend since my circle of friends is small. And ibu kite siap jahitkan satu baju kurung dekat kakak. Remember? Anyway, muat lagi tak baju tu?! Hahaha. Kakak huda yang kite kenal jarang sangat nak cerita in details about family matters. Kite pun tak berani nak tanya.. Unlike me, yang nak bercerita semua. Haha. So, when u told me about your family i always try to be a good listener. Because i know, that moment was precious. Bukan selalu akan dapat momen tu since u are a very secretive person u know. Hehehe. U are one strong lady. Pls bear that in mind ♥

Dear kakak,

Ingat tak zaman kena basuh tandas seminggu? Sebab masa tu kite jadi mastermind nak buat surprise birthday kak huda with tepung dekat tandas dengan all other classmates? Hahahaha. Sorry, bad memories kan? Siap kena marah dengan felo on your birthday lagi.. Balik kelas setiap petang for about a week kena jadi makcik cleaner will all other girls from our class. Sebagai denda dari felo. Kehkeh. Sematlah di ingatan mu ni kak, since not everyone dapat pengalaman begini. Hahaha. Ada jugak benda buat kite gelak masa menulis ni. :) Takmau tulis sedih sedih, tapi sebak pulak bila ingat. Hehe. Thank you for everything my dear kakak.. thank you sebab redha je kena panggil kakak even kite sebaya. Even your other friends annoy with me sebab panggil kak huda as kakak, u never told me to stop calling u that way. Thank you sebab jadi kakak kawasan buat diriku. Auww. Hehe.

our thin version back in matrics life.

Dear kakak,

Even now we rarely met, i want u to know that i always told my husband about u. Hafiz lah kena mendengar siapa lagi kan? Hehe. I always miss our moment together masa matriks. Masa tak boleh undur, tapi semua kebaikan akak are always with me. Selamat pengantin baru, kakak. sorry for not being there besides u on your big day. Selamat berbahagia dengan cik abe pasangan dari zaman sekolahmu ittew. Hehe. Kite doakan yang terbaik buat akak dan cik abe. Kite doakan akak dan cik abe bercinta hingga ke syurga. Lidah tergigit tu asam garam rumah tangga, i know u will be a good wife. Cepat cepat dapatkan kawan for our baby, yes? :P

With ♥,
Your annoying sister who always loves u.

We are expecting :)

Assalamualaikum.

Tajuk dari tadi kite tulis kite padam. Tak tahu apa yang patut kite tulis. Well. This post kite tulis atas dasar nak simpan momen indah yang jadi dalam hidup kite, dalam blog kite. Maaf andai apa yang kite tulis, buat awak yang sedang baca ni masih dalam ttc proses. Banyakkan berdoa ya? :) So.. This is one of it. Kemangan terpaling indah. Our baby. We wait for it for about 1 year and a half dan Allah swt dengar doa dari kite dengan husband. Entri ni dah lama ada dalam draft, so lets hope that my brain can recall some of the memories :)

How did i find out about this pregnancy?

Kite setiap bulan period memang on time. Jarang sangat sangat lambat. Walaupun lambat sehari dua macamtu. But this time around, kite lambat dtg period dalam 5 hari. Hati tak kata apa pun pasal pregnant, sebab kite still period pain even dah lewat 5 hari. Kite cuma nak find out why. Kenapa lambat this month. Banyak kemungkinan. One of it is stress sbb tu period delay. Tapi dalam masa yang sama nak jugak beli pregnancy kit. Who knows kan? Beli kit ni pun sembunyi dengan husband. Jenuhlaa nak sembunyi sebab kite tau husband taknak kite kecewa kalau keputusan kit tu turn out to be negative. The next morning kite buat test tu. Tapi takda apa apa line at all. Shud be ada satu line if negatif ni takda apa apa line. Kite pun redha je anggap maybe kit rosak dan Allah swt taknak kite down ke apa. But... mungkin rezeki kite nak tengok, boleh pulak at that time kite pusingkan kit tu. Bila kite terbalikkan kit tu ke side sebelah, kite nampak ada 2 line= pregnant. Clear line. Bukan kabur. Masa tu taktau nak describe macam mana, badan shaking sebab terlalu happy. Terus solat dan dalam solat kite nangis sebab Allah swt makbulkan doa kite dengan husband. Rasa bersyukur yang kite tak dapat nak gambarkan. Allah swt betul betul maha pemberi nikmat atas sesuatu kan..

Husband bangun pagi kite tunjukkan strip kit tu. Mula mula nak simpan esok sebab esoknya birthday husband. But i kenot la. This is super huge! Kena bagitau jugakkk.

Husband tengok kit tu dia blur.

Husband siap tanya lagi, "maksud line ni ape yang"

Hahhhhha omg. Terus rasa husband innocent taktau. T_T Bila kite explain, husband so happy. So do i. Terus kite nangis lagi.. rasa happy dan sebak sebab rasa semua ni macam mimpi je. Padahal this is what we want dari dulu. Alhamdulillah.. dan dan tu jugak explain bila kite beli pregnancy kit tu hehe bersalah tau buat sesuatu husband tak tahu. 

* Oh, dan period pain yang kite alami masa period delay tu one of symptom yang preggy mommy akan hadapi. Sakit dekat ari ari. Patutla before i found out sakit macamni. Rupanya bukan sakit period pain. Our baby is inside me :')

* Sekarang ni dah masuk 8 bulan dah kite pregnant. Such a roller coaster ride. Banyak sangat benda yang jadi. Be it happy, sad, stress. Mix feelings. All in one. Tapi semua ni berbaloi sangat.. Doakan kite and baby tau? Nanti kite share lagi my pregnancy journey dekat sini. 

TTYL :)